...after sometimes..

Its been a long time since i didnt write...a lot of things have happened. Sweet and sour moments mhappy and sad moments..hmm..i convince myself that i am strong. But im not actually as strong as i always make out to be. Yup..be strong is a hard thing to do when i'm broken.
Im always trying to understand who am i..comparing myself to other people. Trying to understand life deeper. Something is bothering me for the past few months. Ive been thinking abt life, my direction,im afraid i got lost on yhe path of life. i have lots of regret about my past. Regret the time ive wasted with the wrong people, my past decision,experiences and becos my past not being perfect.
alhamdulillah..i can went tru the toughest moments in my life n still manage tu put smiles on my face. sometimes smiles lies ...just for the sake of hiding whats in the inside. apapun sikit demi sikit semua tu dibuang jauh jauuuh jauuuuuh dari hati..x susah rupanya, kalau ingin mencuba..
biasalah..sesekali jiwa pasti terusik, minda mungkin teruji..
yg penting keteguhan diri.insyaallah , tenanglah hati.

Sabar..

Sabarr...tdk semudah diungkap. Menuntut pengorbanan yg bukan sedikit..selalu tewas dan rebah.
Separuh drpd iman.,dan separuh lagi dikuasai perasaan. nk majuk, nk marah, nk muncung, nk geram. itu dulu.. Semakin ditinggalkan..walau hati masih lagi perit menahan sabar, tapi minda dah melarang , hati cuba bertahan.
Pengalaman dan kematangan mengajar erti bertenang, lebih mudah mendapat sayang jika hebat mengawal perasaan.
Lebih ikhlas diberi perhatian, jika hati sedia berkorban. Sesekali beralah , pendamkan sahaja hati yg parah.
Insyaallah, pulangannya lebih indah..:)

Whenever anger comes up, take out a mirror and look at yourself. When you are angry, you are not very beautiful .

bye for now.

dreams

"For everything you have missed, you have gained something else, and for everything you gain, you lose something else" huhu...i wish could have all that i wanted. There is so much I want to do and so many places I want to go - but I don't really think it's ever gonna happen. Sometimes i wish for something that i dont need n for something which is beyond my reach or control....no matter how hard i try, kalau itu bukan takdirnya..takkan mungkin menjadi hak milik kekal. tkde warranty..apalagi guarantee! lumrah..kalau boleh gapai bintang, nk semat didada. kalau boleh ambil bulan, nk gantung wat perhiasan. Dah dpt bulan dan bintang, harapkan pelangi muncul setiap masa..hmm..ternyata harapan seindah impian. impian pula sukarrnya jdi kenyataan. tapii some dreams come true. So, Stop dreaming and start planning. Stop dreaming and start doing! Berdoa, percaya dan yakin dgn kuasa Allah as he is a Great Listener of prayers . bye for now.

salam..

sepsang kaki melangkah meniti usia.... Tahun ni usia bakal meningkat lagi. time flies so quickly. thankfully im still given a chance to breathe . Usia seakan mengejar walau hati tk rela berlari.
i wish that i could stop time or slow down for me at least..or i could turn back time. sgtlah mustahil kan. apapun yg diharapkan..yg pasti ttp akan berlaku. Tinggallah usia yg lps dgn kngn atau impian yg tksempat dicapai, atau kesilapan yg tk smpt diperbetulkan dan mungkin saat indah yg sgt manis utk dikenang. hmm..

A good job, a great big circle of frens, a happy family... what else i want in life..a dream car maybe..hahaa..so greedy .! i always get what i want (except for my dream car huhu..) tpi trkdg seolah tk bersyukur ngan kelebihan yg dikurniakan. Syukur atas segala kelebihan dan kekurangan diri.. walau cuma sederhana tpi tk mengapa..dari tiada biarlah sedikit cuma, dari merana biarlah sederhana ..alhamdulillah.. Lebih indah  bila segala yg dicapai atas keringat sendiri, manisnya bila kesenangan dtg dari kesedaran 'susahnya' masa silam..

sometimes i dont have job satisfaction..tpii bila difikirkan i have to be thankful to have a job.
sometimes i dont like my looks..but what can i do..just be grateful that i have a big nose..hehe
sometimes i feel like life is unfair..but i dont know whom to blame..
sometimes i hope everything turns to gold..but its just nice if it turns to bronze..
nothing is what it seems to be..
dan semestinya hidup itu tk selalunya indah..yg indah itu bila kita bersyukur .. menerima dan pasrah dgn ketentuannya.

salam..entry  pertama bermula. Dgn rasa syukur dan agak ragu..:)